Healing Path
My life took a deep spiritual turn when I hit misery in 2007. The inner strife had been building up since childhood and finally met the tipping point.
During this initial spiritual awakening, I faced both the idea of being killed and the reality of nearly being choked to death in a six month time frame. I was moved to surrender to Life both times and have been doing so ever since with increasing intensity.
What do I mean by surrender?
When I faced death I was just beginning to rekindle a relationship with God that I had let go of in childhood. The first experience of surrender took a little cajoling from a friend who could see what I was truly scared of: the idea of dying. What would happen to me and my children? I chose to hand over all of who and what I knew myself to be, my safety, the safety of my children and my life to the Creator.
That night I was awakened from sleep to participate in what can only be described as a spiritual transformation. I initially felt ill, heard words extended in space directing me to “lay in bed and breathe” and experienced being led in a tunnel to areas of my consciousness that were dark, tense and then whisked to a warm, bright light within. This went on for what seemed hours until I fell into a deep sleep.
The next morning I woke up feeling clear about God. I saw that there are many ideas about God, some perpetuated by religion, that create the illusion that we are separate from the force that gives us Life or that we can separate ourselves from God through certain actions. I have observed that living in this illusion leads to stress, misery, illness and other negatively perceived experiences. My experience confirmed that God was not separate from me, but alive inside of me and I needed to start paying close attention.
At that point I was directed to do something very specific – for myself and for humanity: Help parents work through anger, doubt and frustration – for the children, for the adults and for the harmony of our planet. It became clear to me that parents are asking for answers of how to parent in ways that honor everyone, that honor Life. I agreed to be a tool for transformation and began more intently working towards harmony within myself and my parenting, as well as helping other parents find peace amidst whatever chaos they are experiencing.
The second time started with a fight – about child rearing. It wasn’t pretty. I reacted in anger to something that happened to my child, struck the offender and ended up with his hands wrapped tightly around my neck as he spewed angry words about killing me. I immediately heeded the advice I heard inside “do not resist” and I am alive to tell the story. The story of our ability to wake up and live life intentionally, regardless of what we experience.
What does this have to do with healing… and You?
Everything. Sometimes it take misery to bring us to question everything about life. Sometimes that’s just our nature. I have always been a person to question things, Life. Question whatever needs questioning – especially the roots of any misery you experience.
The path of inner healing has led me to helping others heal through rekindling and affirming one’s relationship with the Source of Life. For various reasons I have wrestled with the role of healing facilitator and I am always directed to the wisdom I received when I was choked, do not resist. Surrendering isn’t always easy and yet it is always freeing.
I offer healing services with one intention: to lead you to the awareness within where healing truly begins. The two main ways I do this are through energy healing and awareness sessions. If you feel moved to connect with me I am pleased to serve you in whatever ways I can.
Realizations
I stumbled along the parenting path, searching inside and outside for a respectful way to fully embrace parenting and guide my children. Through much research, trial and error, and soul searching I came to a clear realization: every thought, belief and resulting feeling, word, and action I experienced deserved in depth exploration. From that realization came many more…
I began to gradually untangle the web of beliefs I had about life and parenting. I realized over and over again that ideas are not absolutely true. I saw that in each moment we are offered the opportunity to recognize ideas that are false to become aware of what is true. My responsibility to words and actions heightened with this awareness.
I realized repeatedly that the suffering created in life and the parent-child relationship is transformed through inner awareness. This aspect of life is so simple it is often overlooked.