The beauty of parenting in the present is that each moment is new. And each moment is only happening right now.

You are that. The journey is returning yourself there and being gentle with yourself. We can give ourselves a hard time or we can walk ourselves through hard times… with help from others at times to remind us (that is huge!)

I wrote the following article on guilt quite a while ago… you may enjoy the perspectives shared ) http://hubpages.com/hub/Ideas-for-clearing-the-way-to-create-your-reality

And may I say this… the awareness you have will carry you through along with a good dose of willingness.

Love,
Amy

Wow! This, you, your life, speaks to me so powerfully right now. I am continually blessed through having met Michael. . .you. . .radiate peace, love, joy, acceptance, calm. . .things people tell me I radiate. . .but I have not felt them of late. . .teases come and go, but, I know, I struggle to face a fear and it has to do with parenting and intimacy. One cannot parent if one fears intimacy- me. I do fear it. . .and. . .somehow the idea that a man and woman could truly love, know and accept themselves and each other and know peace and joy in that relationship for lengths of time. . .I can start to see its appeal, its beauty. . .value. But at the moment that problem is affecting my desire to parent.
I appreciate the guilt message- need for a change. I never understood what guilt was from, but this makes sense. Something I can work with.

And that things will try to block me from peace- oh, I see it. I can see step by step of blockages.

I need to become a fully present parent or wish I never was one.

anna